I really should learn to post here in the afternoon instead of shortly before midnight when my thoughts are already turned to going to bed. Life just seems to keep happening every time I turn. It gets so frustrating and the rain and weather is not helping my mood of feeling trapped. I miss the warm sun and tulips in South Carolina and Georgia. I know God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle but these last few months I have felt like I am standing on the edge of a steep drop off or walking on very thin ice. God has really been there for me though. I lost my job and now I’m subbing with the school district and getting unemployment. My car stopped working and now I have another. I needed a roommate and I found one I really like. (By the way, about the car, if any of you knows fuses on cars, please leave a comment with your e-mail or number. I’m having issues with the lights, or lack of.)
Sometimes I just want to give up and throw the towel in as they say. I’m reminded here of George Bailey from “It’s a Wonderful Life.” I know how he feels- it all seems to be coming down at once. But then God gives me that bit of light I need to keep going. Today it came in the form of two women. The first is my new roommate. We have a lot in common and I think we’ll get along really well. That is a relief. The second was in the form of my friend, Emily. I stopped by her studio tonight to drop something off and stayed for a while with all the staff, family of staff, and customers relaxing in the front of the shop. I had forgotten how much I enjoy doing that. I couldn’t go while the show was going so hadn’t just relaxed there for a while. Medicine for the soul I tell you. It’s my “Cheers”. Everyone knows my name and welcome me there. Today it was the light that helped me step back out the door. I’m holding on.