A Needed Rest

The blog has been pretty quiet since I got home as I arrived to a dead computer. Well, not dead, but definitely in a coma. I think it’s God’s way of making me transition back to my responsibilities slow and easy and to give me lots of time to relax and think. God knows when he needs to manage me, when he needs to take over my schedule and give me room. I love it when he does that and I’m even grateful he did it with my computer. I really did need this room. Yesterday, a computer doctor came and picked up my laptop and says with an organ replacement or two, it should be just fine and back up and running after the new year. This is quite fine with me as I leave in the early morning for northern California for the rest of the week. Before I left for Kenya, I wasn’t sure if I would be feeling up for the trip or not, another ten hours in a car. Now that I’m home, I am realizing the trip is exactly what I need and after all the traveling I’ve done recently, what’s another ten hours? Besides, it will be beautiful scenery. The trip will also be good as I get to spend it with other young adults in the Quaker church celebrating New Years and I’ll have time to work on a writing assignment for Barclay Press without the interruptions that home would inevitably bring. (I’ve already checked to make sure someone else is bringing a laptop.)

Since I got home I have spent most of my time in my room reading which I consider a special treat. It’s such a pleasure to get lost in a good book. However, you can tell I’ve matured as I can now put a good fiction book down to come here to the computer lab and work on some research for the lessons I’m writing. That is my main focus of things to do this week which is strange. Nearly all the things that would normally mark my schedule are just not there. No tap dancing, no substituting with the schools, no photography work with the theatre, nothing. It feels like floating through a fog. It will be interesting to see what that feeling changes into next week when all those things start up again. You would think after a trip of only three and a half weeks, being home wouldn’t be so hard to adjust back to but it is. I grew in ways and changed in ways I did and did not expect and when one thing changes in a system, the whole system changes. What that will mean is the question I am asking and sitting with. I do know one thing though. The questions I’ve been living before I am now activly seeking answers for. In God’s good time he guides us and shows us the paths we need to walk. I’m glad he is there helping me to find my next step.

365-09 #360