I write- a conflicted woman. As I drove downtown this morning, I realized I had double booked myself. You know those times, when it just doesn’t cross your mind that you have been planning events for the same weekend and then it dawns on you and there is NO WAY you can do them all? And it affects more than just you? Yeah. It dawned on me that the weekend George Fox Seminary has their reunion on Saturday and our tap recital is Sunday is the SAME weekend my sister graduates with her degree in Milwaukee which I had been planning to fly out for. It is one of those moments the cold trickle goes down my neck and I wish I could either wake up from this nightmare or be in two places at once.
Tonight at tap we worked though the dances and I had fun! I actually enjoyed it and felt more competent than I have in a long time. And I actually think if I work hard, I would be happy to keep at it and perform in the recital. Having some projects done, house sitting done, and time to work on what really needs to get done, has been so helpful in opening up space in my life for tap. This also may be the last recital I’m in and I treasure that. I have also been really looking forward to the reunion at George Fox Seminary that Saturday. On the other hand, I only see my sister once or twice a year and she never walked for her undergrad degree. It’s all important to me and I am going to be upset no matter what I do. This sucks.
By the way, does anyone who lives near Portland or Salem have a de-humidifyer around? I need one for our Quaker Youth Book Project meeting. Thanks!
365-09 #88
What have you decided to do?
I just got off the phone with my younger sister and she said it would be completely okay if our older sister and I flew over there to Wisconsin together for a weekend visit shortly after her graduation. She said it would actually work out better that way anyway. I called Stacey immediately and relieved her of much stress after telling her I will indeed, be coming to the recital. Wow. That is a weight off my shoulders.